1861 – Structure

I am not suggesting for one minute that I am not ill. I have had a persistent chronic cough since well before retirement started. A friend has suggested that it could be an intolerance – I think that is a possibility. I have a Drs appointment next week, I’ll raise it as a possibility.

I’ve had two and a bit weeks now of retirement. Now, I have had periods of leave longer than this, but they have usually been because we are going on holiday, or because of Christmas. Either way, at the end of it I’d be going back to work. Not this time. For the best part of 50 years, my life has had a structure to it. Get up, go to work. That’s stopped. Perhaps that is having a bigger psychological impact on me than I anticipated?

I’ve had lots of plans for retirement, things that I want to do. I could perhaps understand not getting on with those plans since retiring – I’m having a real break. Yeah, like – no.

Yesterday, I raised a todo list. This morning I said to Elayne “I’m going back to work”. It was kind of said in jest. But at some point I have to start putting some structure back in my life, even if it isn’t very good. Also, when does this stop? I’m being pathetic.