Tonight then, was in my estimation the first time in not far off five years when I didn’t have to worry at all about the Thursday Night Net. I have to confess that the freedom from the anxiety of the thought of doing tonight’s net or worrying about next week or any future activity was, to say the least exhilarating.
That’s not to say I won’t come back to it at some point in the future. I certainly hope to. The question, of course is why did I have to leave it? That’s the one I can’t answer. All I can say is that the prospect of having to do it was making feel physically ill.
Of course, I haven’t completely got away from it, as I am wracked with guilt at having let my friends down. For that, I am having a lot of trouble forgiving myself.
Bills Posts 